I can't figure out just what to do when the cause and cure is you....

F M L!

So I found out that Cedric wants to take me out...

Great... I hope it's true. I'm looking forward to the adventure I'm about to embark on.

Finding the REAL man of my dreams. Future father of my children.

It's a damn shame that when I close my eyes and imagine myself with my husband and kids, Chris is the husband and the father of my children. Pathetic. Seeing him hurts so much... I always feel it deep in my gut. It's crazy nuts. He got a haircut and he just looks so much more appealing to me now that I don't want him to.

Doesn't seem fair. Hmph.

Anyway, my supervisor hired this fairly attractive bloke who is probably going to be the downfall of the office. He is the only man in our office. He smells good. Drowns himself in his cologne. Nicely groomed.

I'd hit it, if I was that kind of girl.

Levi is my other flavor of the week. He works at 24-Hour Fitness and my goodness, he's the only reason I get through my workouts. If I focus on him, I burn a ton of calories until I get self-conscious. He's hot. I'd hit that too. A lot. Again, if I was that kind of girl.

Then there is Benjamin. I met Benjamin yesterday. He's the lead singer of this local R&B group that my cousin works with. So charming. Flirty and chatty. Show-off. He said his name is Benjamin/Gee. Too bad he's so young. No robbing the cradle for me.

So let's see .... over the last two weeks we have met Cedric, the chivalrous corrections officer; Thalen, the lone hot man in the office; Levi, the freakin' hot 24-Hour Fitness employee; and Benjamin, the flirty, too young lead singer...

Wonder what kind of men I'll meet next week...

Of course, the only one with potential is Cedric.

Oh Chris, why won't you fall madly in love with me so I don't have to deal with this crap?

I better go to bed. I planned to hit the gym at 8AM. If I don't go to sleep now, that won't happen.