American Music Awards and stuff

What a damn trainwreck! It featured some of the worst performances ever. The only performances I paid attention to were from Kelly Clarkson, Keith Urban, Carrie Underwood, and Eminem/50 Cent.

Oh, Eminem... I think you're damn hot. Damn, damn hot. Something sexy about his rapping and the way he does it.

I think something is seriously wrong with Lady Gaga. Her performances and videos seem really crazy, but if you get past all of that and actually listen to some of the lyrics in her songs, you'll hear that someone really fucked her head up.

Here's a few lines from 'Bad Romance' which is one of my favorite songs right now:

You know that I want you
And you know that I need you
I want it bad, your bad romance

I want your love and
I want your revenge
You and me could write a bad romance
I want your love and
All your lovers' revenge
You and me could write a bad romance

I don't know about anybody else, but I'm not looking for a bad romance. I'd prefer a good romance, thanks...

When everybody was going crazy over Adam Lambert during American Idol, I was going crazy over the sweet, charming Southern boy from Arkansas. Kris Allen was so underrated. I thought Adam was over the top. He didn't sing. He screeched. I hated him as a singer. After watching him perform tonight, I stand by what I've thought all along. That performance was WAY over the top and too raunchy for ABC. I was so disappointed and shocked. When I first heard 'For Your Entertainment', I always pictured Adam in an S&M outfit, smacking someone (guy or girl) with a whip. It has the perfect whipping beat. I always told the people who sang his praises that once American Idol was over, he wasn't going to be the Adam you knew from Idol.

I only have to work one day this week. I'm ecstatic. Really. Then I have the rest of the week off.

I might go see The Blind Side or Precious on Tuesday.

Honestly, I'd like to see New Moon again. I completely feel Bella's pain, especially when she would scream out during the night. Sometimes you want something or somebody so bad that you feel it in your gut. It's like a stomach-twisting, nauseous feeling that makes you scream out in pain and you just want to cry. You do cry. You can't breathe. You feel like your world is pretty much crumbling beneath you. I've been feeling like that a lot lately. My problem is wanting something I've never had and it has more to do with the fact that I don't know how to go about getting it. It kills me inside.

Bella already had him and he left her.

So Noah is my Jacob Black and I wish Chris Glick was my Edward Cullen (minus the obviously abusive relationship). Bella threw herself at Edward and used Jacob. I don't want to admit that I use Noah. He uses me too.

Gah, I hope no one ever sees this.

Off to bed now.