The internet is a horrible, horrible place.
I’d like to think that I’m an intelligent woman.
So why did I do something so stupid?
Why didn’t I remember that as long as people have your name and can attach it to their name, they can find out anything you’ve said about them?
Why?
Stupid Idea #1- I am an extremely shy WOMAN who gave a teenager a card to give some random dude I didn’t know. I didn’t know if said dude even got the stupid card.
Stupid Idea #2 - I took to the internet venting about how much I was interested in this guy who looked right through me. Never did I think that he would find some or all of it and share it with the people at his job and that it would get spread around to TEENAGERS at the local high school. What the hell?
I’m so glad that what I consider to be a sensitive subject is being talked about (negatively) with a bunch of people I don’t know.
I am SO stupid. I said I didn’t want him to be like Noah. Now I know he’s worse than Noah. Noah would NEVER do anything like that. Noah, who calls me whenever he’s excited about something and wants to share it with me, who smiles when he’s a block away from me because he’s just excited to see me. I treated Noah like crap because he wasn’t who I wanted. Honestly, I still don’t want him, but now I don’t too much care for the other one either.
I’m sure it’s embarrassing for him, thinking that some random chick is stalking him, but I’m doing the complete opposite.
Anyway, I won’t be going to that store until I’ve found my backbone which will probably be in late 2010.
This was bound to blow up sooner or later. I let it go on too long. Hopefully, it will all die down soon. I don’t want to hear anything about what I did through other people. It makes me realize how truly pathetic it all was.
And I learned a valuable lesson. Never judge a book by its cover, no matter how eye-catching it is.
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